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I'm no different than other males in that we are all attracted to the same
girls. You know -- the kind
you see in the movies but don't exist in real life. And if you do get lucky and find
one "trashy-hot", chances are (1) you don't have enough money,
( 2)
you aren't good-looking enough to date her, or (3) you'll find out that no matter how
"wild" she dresses, her "bark" is a lot worse than her
"bite".
When you're single, ALL you do is think about SEX. Hobbies can help.
But like cold showers, they get old fast! You rent XXX movies. You go to strip clubs. You may
even buy an inflatable doll. But none of that works for long and usually you end up in
a relationship you didn't really want in the first place.
Like Captain Kirk, I never believed in "no-win"
situations. I have found a
"solution". It works for me but only
because I'm small-boned, tall&skinny, and have a female
model's physique. I let my sexual fantasies come alive in the REAL WORLD by
becoming my own "Fantasy Girl".
At first, it was
hard to do because I'm NOT
'bi' or 'gay'. And it started slowly as I got my nerve up
more-and-more. In the beginning, it was just doing impersonations on stage. Next, it was some photo-shoots and
modeling. Then it was going "public" for limited times. But like the cold
showers, these activities soon became boring and they were doing nothing
to satisfy my sexual needs.
So I took the next step -- meeting people as their "dream
slut". I never had any acting training (indeed, most of what I've learned in any endeavor has been on-my-own through
trial-and-error). But if you can let this alter-personality "channel"
into your psyche, it's not all that hard. And (the MAJOR
point) I do "get
off"! Just like those who are doing "it" to me.
Now some will say that's sick and so on.
But most of them are already married and therefore not on the "playing
field" anymore. I usually respond to my detractors with
"if you don't play the 'game', you
sure-as-hell can't make the rules" -or- "what is
one's 'meat' is another's
'poison' ". It's just an interim substitute for
the time-being. Others like Howard Hughes, J. Edgar Hoover,
Tony Curtis, Jack Lemmon, Eddie Murphy, Patrick Swayze, Wesley Snipes,
and Johnny Depp have spent some time acting out their female
counterparts. So I stand in good company.
Most of the people (men AND women) who approach me are experiencing sexual boredom.
And most are 'straight'. In fact, 'gay' men and women tend NOT to "like" me
in a sexual manner. Bi-guys like me only if I screw them (which I NEVER do, so don't
even ask that!). Bi-girls do like me. But while their
husbands don't mind them with
another female, they would get upset if they discovered the 'female' was a male after all!
Now none of these people are planning on leaving their mates or
boy/girl-friends for anyone else. For whatever reason, they were pushed to some
"brink" and needed a brief interlude to relieve their passions.
Sue them for being
human. And if either they (or I) could find the "real"
thing (even if we had to "pay" for a hooker), we would. I know I'm not
what they REALLY want. And they
are not what I really want myself.
It's a compromise -- a last-ditch
emergency solution. But one which everyone seems to have a lot of FUN with and goes
home "drained" and satisfied !
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